(a render lately of my current table and room, 80% finished )

Haven’t been updated this site for a while, wasn’t really busy, but trying to enjoy life a bit more than used to be.

What I’ve been searching for the cure of my heart made some progress lately. I’ve been told that everyone has some sort of battle to face in their regular life. Don’t know if this is universal, since I know one or two person who doesn’t take anything personal in any circumstances. I admire them, and I’m glad I can find them as my friend so that I know there’re some other life style in this world that is inspiring and rewarding.

However for me, I found I need to let go certain type of brief that built on in early stage of my life. By watching how seriously other people take personal what they’re looking for, you feel pity for them. That’s right. Nothing is really important at the current moment. You don’t have to give up your brief, it’s just that you have to be ok to know that you can’t fulfill your brief at the current moment. And that’s ok. You still can stay in this moment and enjoy being in this moment to take a look at how badly you aren’t fulfilling this brief. It’s not big deal. You want to have it, however you’re not getting it. It’s ok, maybe tomorrow you’re getting it, or maybe not. Not important, be happy with the feeling that you’re not having something. And enjoy that

What makes me this call is mostly due to the brief that I think everything might be in tune with certain type of time frame which is out of control by human. You don’t have the right to choose what’s now, but you can enjoy being what’s now, I don’t know who got the right to choose what’s now for me, but obviously it can’t be me

Hope above helps.

Fang

(A simple concepture illustration designed for an introduction article on QPlot.org which just launched couple days ago. I put a bit variation on this one )

As usual, this place documents lots of my thoughts and growth to where I believe to be freedom, of my heart, at least. And today’s topic is about appreciation, especially the appreciation of the present, the things around you, and the thing you are doing right now.

We might have ambition, and things that we want to do to make ourselves stand out of crowd, or things to do that can benefit our future. But I start to realize that the most precious thing happened everyday is what I am doing. Think it a moment that how amazing that I can do what I’m doing, ex. surfing the web, and writing this article. What if tomorrow I won’t be able to do what I’m doing, which lights up what I’m doing right away

“Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.” This is what Einstein says about focusing on the present, you just can’t ride two horses at the same time, or you are just not appreciating the presence of any of them. From appreciation, not only you acknowledges their existence, but also you demonstrates naturally the compatibility between you and them.

Focus on the present, focus on what you’re doing, be happy what you’re doing at the moment, and appreciate cherish the chance that you can do it. The longer you persists, the better it gets

(The above modeling is done by following a modo tutorial step by step, pretty awesome huh

Just realize most of things probably doesn’t need extra force to accelerate. It happens when the time is right, and the reason why it happens might just because all the piece that makes the thing happen are all ready. To find out all the pieces and make each one ready takes effort and persistence.

No need to piss off things not going on the right direction. Things get out of shape or out of order naturally all the time. No need to get personal about that. It’s not you or anybody else fault. When it happens, you just need to fix it if you would love to. But do realize, to get them back in order takes effort.

Depending on your expectation on how things should go, your effort could be high. But no get anxious. You just need to manage as much as you can to get to where you want. If the goal is a bit hard to reach, lower your expectation. You only have that much of time every day, and most of important, you only have that much of energy to put on the things you like most. Do your best.

When high expectation is increased on certain aspect, you need to realize that more effort needs to be spent on that subject, therefore other expectations need to be adjust to accommodate the situation. No anxious or stress needs to be raised if you’re aware of this. Things you want won’t fall upon sky naturally, only shit happens every second. You just have to manage through. That’s all.

Don’t wait for the things to happen, redistribute your expectations, put more effort on things you like most. Get close to the sh** thing and clean them up one after one right after they happen. Remember you are just managing through. It’s not for baby, it’s a battleground. Bullet hurts you, but no need to cry, it’s not personal, just pull it off and continue Everyday gonna be like this, until

When it comes, it comes.